Im your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you LOVE me

papa-paparazzi !

Dear Lord,

please forgive me for my life of sins but what im about to spit is only truly genuine

there is only one way to solve an issue and that's knowing the hard way.

tell me who I have to be?

to be or not to be . . .

who's to say?

YOU won't find out would you? and if you knew would you go around and tell a nigga?

because at this point my life arouses within. . .

see I know what I got to do, and that's not letting go of what I feel in general

as tino always says: "is it worth the squeeze?"

and only I know if it would be good or bad,

and at this point I think you CHANGED my mind !

sorry if this doesn't make any sense but I know that it's me and NOTHING CAN EVER CHANGE unless you will truly be genuine

PROVE ME WRONG!

yours truly,

the girl with multi personalities.

Just getting it off my chest. . .

today was a chill day. No work, no school why? because i've been ill ;( Anyhow, unexpected night with my friends from wayy back ;) and the new friend lol. 

However, things are slowly but surely falling into place ! I get the concept and it's just mind tricking how this all works. you know what? im warned out, im sick and I don't have time to ponder around on what I am going to write so tomorrow lets see if I give you a better blog.

Bonne Nuit.

What is it?

I JUST don't know . . .

i love this feeling but at the same time Im thinking about other things that are going through my head.

im very intuitive when it comes to "lying" and at this point I would like (and this goes for everyone in general) to be straight up with me. I can compromise with your actions as long as I know you keep it one hundred with me. Now if you lie and cannot cover it like MAC then you just signed your lying oath. I just wish things can go MY WAY like usher but hey im only human damn it and I should just focus on school, work and what is surrounding me daily. In the meantime, I am enjoying what I have and lets see how long it will last. I don't know but it's just an uncanny feeling. A part of my body is warm and feels just right. However, there is the other side where it's cold and it's a thin line between blind and sight. Am I just selfish? or is it right to be selfish maybe to a certain extent.

As of November 1, 2009, I shall remain accompanied by myself ;(

PS: this is a freestyle p o s t. . . I just let my fingers touch my keyboard.

It's the Return of Jaydillaaaa

I keep on asking myself . . .

"Where do we stand?" 

what do you want from me?

love. lust?

The world may never know. .. 

Fuck "21 Questions" Can I get a . . .

1. Can I hit it in the morning without giving you half of my dough and even worse if I was broke would you want me?

- haha yes you can! and i'd want you for who you are not for what you have.

2. If I couldn't get you finer things like all of them diamond rings bitches KILL FOR would you STILL ROLL?

-Ride or die chick, FashooOO!

3. If we couldn't see the sun risin' off the shore of Thailand would u RIDE THEN, if i wasn't DRIVIN'?

-Ride 'til the wheels fall off baby! heehe

4. If i wasn't ah, eight figure nigga by the name of Jigga would you come around me or would you clown me?

-I'd "come around" like collie buddz :D haha Nah there's no need for clownin' as long as you're doing something RIGHT ;)

5. If I couldn't flow futuristic would ya put your two lips on my wood and kiss it?

-What wood? Mannywood? haha kiss it like there's NO tomorrow! lmao

6. Could ya see yourself with a nigga workin' harder than 9 to 5 contend with six, two jobs to survive

-As long as you're a go getta, getting your shit straight, im boO with that.

OR

7. Do you need a BALLA? So you can shop and tear the MALL UP? Brag, tell your friends what I BOUGHT YA . . .

-Now I ain't saying im a golddiggaaa but I ain't messing with no broke niggaaaa haha I be tearin' shit up! fuck a mall we hitting Rodeo Drive. hehe J.P. where ever YOU wanna take me ;) where ever we go, whether is cheap or expensive im still gonna brag what you bought me because in the end it's the thought that counts. Come on, my mind is like a rock but I have a heart made out of gold.

8. If you couldn't see yourself with a nigga when his dough is low . . .

-It's all good I can still see myself with you :D

Baby girl, if this is so, yo. . . 

Can I get a FUCK YOU

to these bitches from all of my niggaz

who don't love hoes, they get no dough.

Can I get a SOOOOO WOOP [haha]

to these niggaz from all of my bitches

who don't got love for niggas without dubs?

hahaha this shit is brazy; Then here I come.  . . [Haaha]

 

You ain't gotta be rich but FUCK THAT

How we gonna get around your BUS PASS

Fo' I put this pussy on your mustache

Can you AFFORD ME, my niggaz breadwinners, never corny

Ambition makes me, so horny

Not the fussin and the frontin

If you got nuttin, baby boy, you betta

"Git Up, Git Out and get somethin" Shit!

I like a, lot of P-rada, Alize and Vodka

Late nights, candlelight, then I tear the cock up

Get it up I put it down everytime it pop up, huh

I got to snap em, let it loose, then I knock ya

Feel the juice, then I got ya, when you produce a rocka

I let you meet momma and introduce you to poppa

My, coochie remains in a Gucci name

Never test my patience nigga, I'm high maintenance

HIGH CLASS, if you ain't rollin, bypass

If you ain't holdin, I dash yo

Late night blog snack ;D

& so I k.o. reading my book [which im almost done with!] I guess I was just super exhausted! :x

sooo

my b i r t h d a y  is in t w o days!!

PS: "come and make it rain down on meeeeeee" awwww :D ahha

fuck a birthday sex  .. . this song is the SHIT!